Blood Drips from Your Eyes a Beatiful Last Goodbye

well it all started at skool so much stuff is happening that i cant ell my friendz. i have nobody to talk to so i feel lonely sometimes cause it seems my friendz at skool dont care about me anymore. s one day i thought if i cut myself once that it would release all my pain well it did and my friend caitlin saw my scares and told me why i did it well i had to lie to her and say i wanted to do it for fun. well that lasted till the next day once i did it again this time it felt like i had to do it when i did it last time it released all my pain so i did it again so then i needed help so i talked to rockluver1, and emogirl880990 and they both told me good reasons why i shouldnt cut myself. they had some bad stories about their cuts and it made me wanna kill myself so i took their addvise and well i did it again but i havent done it for about 2 days now but its still in my head. i found a song called "you're not alone" by saosin that talkes about why you need to stay in the world. so i have stopped for now and i hope i dont do it ever cause i still have scares on my arm and i have to hide them from my friendz or they will freak and flip out on me and they wont ever understand cause they never cut themselves. well i talked to rockluver1 and boi he is the only reason im alive i would have killed myself already and if you dont believe then i dont kare rockluver1 kind of liked saved me from all the horror and made me think of the world different and he told me that if i was kidding and boi i dont kid around when im on the computer only in person.so i have not cut myself and still nobody undertstands me at skool but at least skool is gonna be over so i culd be away from all the drama and their is a lot of drama at my skool. so summer will help me talk more to people on buzznet cause most of them have cut themselves like me but i still like most of my friendz.